John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. My pregnancy was the biggest adventure I've ever found myself into. Since the very moment we found out I became the happiest woman on earth but I was terrified at the same time. You may or may not know but two years ago we lost a baby, and that's why when i found out I was pregnant again the fear came back to me. Months went by, throwing up, nauseas were gone and the more I seek jesus the more the fear was gone. Suddenly I was on the 6th month already, and it was there when the adventure became more exciting. We received not so good news, Luca was sited! My dream was always to do natural labour when I had kids, at home and in water. Fear came back again but this time I decided not to let it come into my life. We started to do more exercises so luca could go back to his normal position. On the 8th month the doctor said he needed to do a c-section because Luca was not in the right position to have a natural birth. As soon as I heard that I felt my dream was falling apart and my fear to have a c-section was bigger. I was shaking! I closed my eyes and i surrendered everything to God. The most important thing was that Luca would be alright.
i saw Beto so determined telling the doctor we were going to go home to talk about it and see other options. I couldn't believe he was on my side when i was so vulnerable. We spoke to my midwife and she gave us two options, the first one was a external manual version and the second one was a breech-birth. I can forget that moment, i felt so lost, tired and sad also. I had done everything i was tell to do. Luca was healthy why a C-section? i didn't know what to do. In the midst of all this i seek God asking for direction, wisdom, conviction and peace. A lot of people gave their own point of view some judged and i felt even worse. I found myself in a place i had never been before. I want my baby to be alright and that was enough to gave up my dream. I love my baby more then my dream - i though. I wanted to have a C-secton and finish with this whole thing. But something was telling me to keep looking. And so i did! We visited another doctor and we tried a external manual version but it didn't work, so we has one more option left we went to another doctor and he explained everything about a breech-birth. He gave 8 necessary points for this and only 7 applied to me, he explained it even better and i could feel peace that peace you can't understand. It could only come from God. To many people i'm not responsable or even negligent but i can tell you that we felt so supported by our Father that never left us. The time was here, my water broke and i could feel emotions all own my body. I was never scared! After 6 hours of labor and 20 minutes pushing finally Luca came out!! He came on the exact date, 40 weeks. During that time i felt God cheering up on me to i knew i was doing good! I had the best team on my side, my amazing husband, my two awesome doulas, my midwife and my family. I couldn't feel more blessed!! This expirience has taught me to not give up until i recieve His blessing, to always seek the truth, i will never stop fighting for the truth. Right now i'm even more passionate for "births" one of my goals is to become a doula and be able to help other women to pursue the truth in their own lives as well.
0 Comentarios
|